If you think the world is out to get you, you're right!

Today's dream is an interesting one. I am known to be a positive thinker, one who likes to look at everything in a good light. Recently, I've allowed negative thoughts to creep into my head. I chose to think the world was out to get me. In my minds eye I couldn't do anything right. My self talk was extremely negative and I blamed others for the wrong that went on in my life. I'd get angry with the way people were acting. I would be angry that the world is full of liars, cheats, thieves, and feel like the world is hopeless and living in such a world would only be worth living if I lived away from everyone. I found myself giving into the way of the world only to find that happiness didn't exist in a negative mindset.

The world is full of good things and good people, but its up to me to chose to look at the world that way. Is that hard to do sometimes? You better believe it, but the good thing is there are a lot more good things than there are bad in life, you just have to find them. Tonight there is a blizzard that is taking over the state and I had friends and family call/text/IM to make sure that I was ok. They made sure that if I was to be stuck in a place for too long due to weather that I was prepared. How wonderful is that? It made me feel wanted and needed. Even at work, my boss wanted me to stay the whole day despite the storm. Even though I took that as someone not caring about my safety, I need to realize that she wanted and needed my help. I need to stay positive so my dreams will remain so.

Today's Dream Wasn't the Same as Yesterdays

Why do good dreams always have to portray a greater yesterday than today? Does anyone else notice how dreams happen in the past? We remember them in the present and wishing the past would come to pass, but you rarely have a dream that you live at that moment. Do dreams run our lives? Do we hope for things that we've seen happen, but don't know how to achieve it?

Hope is a hard thing to swallow, especially when you work so hard and nothing happens. I feel like sometimes hope is hit and miss. I feel like hope can never be satisfied. I hopw for great things for myself, but I rarely know how to make it come to pass. Hope does not change the outcome of each situation. I can see why some people would want to live without hope, and I can see why some people can't live without it. Hope frustrates me today, but allows me to keep going. Can anything else be more confusing?

The answer to that question is yes. Why is it OK to hope and dream for a loved one during your lonely times, only to find out when you have a love one that your alone time is all to precious? What makes these things so important? I have so many questions that only "living the dream" can uncover. So look out world as I dream yesterday that brings hope today for a loved one while I type alone tonight.

As my friend Andy says "I have more to say but can't tonight...its time for bed." and my roommate Eli say hello.

Good night all. May you dream a dream that you will want to live tomorrow!

Living this dream is pretty confusing

My friend recommend that I start a blog to help me get out my thoughts and ideas about life as it changes so rapidly. I love the saying "living the dream" because I never know what dream I am living or if I'm even living the life I am destined to live. Is this life here to confuse me? Is this life here to make me better? Why does everyday seem to confuse me? Why do friendships go away? Why do friends become lovers? Why do lovers become distant?

Out of all of these whys, my dream that I live is pretty amazing. I have so much to be thankful for. The dream that is good is filled with joy and happiness due to the recognition of everything that I've been blessed with. I have a great job, a great family, great friends, great co-workers that looks out for everyone's best interest.

The dream of what might have been weighs heavy on my mind. Dreams of the past creep up reminding me of how great things were then and how different they are now. These dreams can find ways to haunt me if I let them, but they can also find ways to make me smile.

The dream of what should be drives me crazy. Everyone has a dream of what they want their ideal life to be, but only to find out that the dream cannot become reality due to the fact that we limit ourselves. I'm extremely tired right now, but I love the title of this blog and am excited to continue writing.